Katie Feavel

August 07, 2014

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BABIES ARE NOT EQUAL TO ROBOTS

There is one sentence I have said more frequently than any other in parenting conversations. Whether we're talking about my kid or somebody else's kid.

It's something I have to remind myself of and be reminded of by friends and family when I find my own child's inconsistency frustrating.

It rings particularly true in those "it's not you, it's me" parenting moments... It's not your inconsistency that's frustrating me, rather my own lack of realistic expectations.

And that's when I have to realize the truth of my own repeated words... Every single day is DIFFERENT. Different from yesterday, different from last week, different from what tomorrow will bring.

I, as an adult, as a supposed "creature of habit," would never attempt to sleep from exactly 10pm to 5am every singe night, without any room for natural variation in my body's schedule.

If I wasn't asleep by 10:30, I wouldn't begin to think that something was wrong with me or my sleeping arrangement. I wouldn't take drastic steps the next night to be sure that the blip in perfect scheduling didn't happen again.

If I normally eat dinner at 6, but felt hungry around 5... I'd probably just eat at 5! Because my body knows what it needs.

This kind of thing sounds so obvious when we put it in a context of our adult bodies. Why, then, are we so mistrustful and controlling over the bodies of our babies? Why are we so thrown off by natural variations in their schedules?

Schedules can be really good tools, don't get me wrong. Rhythm is good. Predictability is good. Stability and consistency are GOOD. But being realistic is... healthy. And having realistic expectations about how much is actually within our ability to control with our infants and toddlers... and how much is even healthy for us to try to control.. would save us all a lot of frustration and worry.

Cause sometimes your kid is going to refuse to take a nap all day... and other times he'll manage to pass out on top of the kitchen counter in the time it takes you to fill the sink with water for a quick bath.Sam sleeping  Expect each day to be different, and suddenly flexibility becomes a part of the routine.    

July 31, 2014

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THAT AWESOME MOMENT WHEN REAL COMMUNICATION HAPPENS WITH YOUR YOUNG TODDLER

Sam understood me today... In the last few days I thought he might be picking up more of what I say. He seemed to respond more quickly and appropriately to simple things like "look," hug," "wait," "come here," etc.

He even spent half an hour last night searching the house for Daddy, who wasn't home at the usual time because of some work stuff.

He responded appropriately when I asked what he was looking for... "Dada." And when I told him Dada wasn't in whatever area of the house he was indicating/searching, he'd nod or babble in affirmation and look somewhere else. Pretty freakin' adorable!

But today... He most definitely completely understood what I was telling him. I was working on a bib order and he wanted to see the sewing machine. So I put him on my lap and said "You can look, but don't touch." So of course he immediately reached out and tried to touch it. "No, Sam, don't touch." I moved his hand away. He arched his back and started throwing a little stink-fit. I plopped him back down on the floor and said "If you're going to be nasty, you can do it on your own."

He stopped crying instantly (wait, what?!) He got back up and wanted to see the machine again so I set him in my lap... Repeat trying to touch & "don't touch" a few times.... But this time with only mild frustration on his part.

Finally, I said "Okay Sam, this is a needle (pointing to needle)... It can hurt you (signing "hurt"). You can't touch it, but you can stay in my lap if you just watch."

He put his hands in his lap and sat quietly watching the sewing machine for a good five minutes before climbing back down to go do his own thing. I know it won't always be that easy... but that was definitely among some of the cooler parenting moments so far! 

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July 30, 2014

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FINDING NORMAL AND MORE "IN THE MOMENT" NONSENSE

I talk about being in the moment a lot. I think that's because it's probably the thing I struggle with the most.

One part of "being in the moment" has to do with letting yourself off the hook, right? Realizing that you only have so much to give to any one glimpse of your day... and that has to be good enough... for you and for those around you.

Today has been kinda rough.

My 13-month old is cluster feeding -- meaning nursing almost every hour -- because his mouth hurts and he's trying to find comfort. That's fine, except that he also won't sleep on his own today, so I found myself spending 3 solid hours holding and rocking him while he slept/fussed/nursed in rotation.

But then I really needed food... I could feel my blood sugar tanking. I hadn't eaten in close to 5 hours and had meanwhile been burning a ton of extra calories nursing Sam.

So... I tried setting him down, even though I knew it would wake him up and that he really could have used more sleep. He was awake the second I stood up with him... and man just SO uncomfortable.

I probably could have gone back to rocking and gotten him back to sleep. But I knew in that moment that I needed to be able to help sustain him and in order to do that, I had to make sure my own body had its basic needs met.

So the result was booster seat, The Prince of Egypt on Netflix (which is a phenomenal movie, by the way), and a paci he hardly even takes anymore strapped on with a fuzzy pink paci clip I had in my stash of things to sell...

Teething Sam

Anyway, this allowed me to cook up some food. Both of us got a nice big meal and he seems to be feeling a bit better... playing quietly on his own with toys.

I probably should be trying to make some sense of my currently chaotic house... or doing the dishes... or folding the three loads of clean laundry sitting in a giant pile on our bed.

Somebody from the outside might wonder why I'm wasting time sitting here writing something that probably only a handful of people will read... and even fewer will find worthwhile.

But sometimes, finding for yourself a moment of normal... whether that's reading, writing, chatting with a friend, pointlessly organizing some area of your house, or taking five minutes to sip on your coffee that you've been reheating for the last 3 hours... finding your normal in the midst of chaos is just as important as the items of productivity that are more easily measured.

Sometimes being in the moment means knowing that whatever you give is good enough. Sometimes it means prioritizing basic needs of yourself and others. And sometimes it means simply doing things that help you feel normal.

July 26, 2014

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grief is not a four letter word and so much else is noise

On Saturday I'd made a list of things I wanted to write about this week.

I had expected to share with you all the details of Sam's 1st Birthday party... the recipe for the cake I made him, his outfit, the decor... but none of those details seem important enough to write about anymore.

The morning after Sam's party we woke to the news that a beloved uncle on my husband's side of the family had passed suddenly of a heart attack.

His is not my story to tell, nor would I do it justice if I tried. But I can tell you that he was a wonderful father, husband, son, uncle, brother, friend... who is utterly irreplaceable and will be greatly missed by so many.

I did want to share a few thoughts, a few things this last week has taught me.

It is unnerving how quickly life shifts...

One afternoon the family is celebrating a first birthday, the next morning we are grieving a terrible loss. All the more reason to truly cherish the moments we have on this earth together.

Big families can be a blessing.

My husband's family is huge... the sheer amount of people around to help and take pieces of this burden from those who are grieving the most is impressive. And each of these people has something unique to offer.

There's a sort of tier structure when it comes to loss within a family...

There are those at the center of the crisis, that cling to one another and are supported from all around. Then those in that second ring of support are also being held by a third tier, etc.

Then there are the many countless neighbors, acquaintances, friends-of-friends... people offering up prayers and positive thoughts.

It's a tragically beautiful ripple effect that both spreads the memory of the one who has been lost, and creates a safety net for those left behind to mourn his death and celebrate his life.

Everybody handles grief differently, everybody has a role to play in the process of navigating out of it.

After the last few days I believe more than ever that God gives us the kind of people we need in the moments we need them.

Some people are good leaders, some are organizers, some people clean, some people feed, some cry with us, some hold us up, and still some are just so wonderfully skilled at finding joy and peace in the midst of mourning.

Grief comes in waves.

It is exhausting, but sleep is elusive. Nothing can fix it, nor make it go away... though food and family seem to help.

Babies make it better, if only for a few seconds...

Something about their innocence seems to lighten the burden and bring smiles to faces.

Grief has a way of showing us what truly matters in our lives, and what's just noise.

Sam & Daddy at the BeachImage is an unrelated shot of my husband holding my son as he experiences the ocean for the first time... it's moments like these that matter and are worth holding onto.

July 17, 2014

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LESSONS FROM SAM: #4

I don’t typically sleep well. Never really have, not even as a little kid. I’ve spent way too many countless hours at night thinking/worrying/planning the next day. I make notes in my phone, use the “Tasks” and “Checklist” features, send emails to myself… But, guess what?

Nothing I ever plan ends up the way I plan it… No matter how much I think about the plan, Worry about the plan, Plan about the plan… I’ve never been able to check off that whole To-Do list, or follow the “realistic” schedule I spend an hour setting for myself. My son on the other hand…

 

As long as he’s fed and comfy, he’s out cold in minutes. Then every morning he wakes up with a giant grin on his face, ready for whatever might await him that day.

He starts with a clean slate. Endless possibilities. And he accomplishes more in one day than I do for sure. So today I'm going to try to simplify a bit. I'm going to be more present... more purposeful... and look for small opportunities for productivity in each moment.

And tonight, no matter what I do or do not accomplish during the day, I'm going to snuggle up with my boys and just let it all go... Because life is too precious... and too short... to waste so much time worrying about how I can manage to do it all.

I will never do it all. But I can do whatever I am able... here. Now. In this moment.

July 10, 2014

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THE TOO RAH LOO TAKE (AND TIPS) ON TEETHING

We're smack in the middle of some yucky teething stuff today... It's making Sam feel pretty rotten... He's making this face a lot...Samuel teethingAnd chewing his poor fingers to death.Teething stinks… it just does. But these babies are such troopers about it! If I had to cut teeth I’d be bed-ridden and complaining constantly.
There seems to be a pretty wide range of how badly teething affects babies. I’d put Sam in the middle of this spectrum. He has some fussy days and nights, with a few hours here and there where you can tell he’s just downright hurting… but mostly he just keeps cruising right on through.
Early on, when I was concerned over Sam's first bout of teething and trying to find ways to comfort him, I had a mom acquaintance tell me, "they're going to be miserable no matter what you do, so why stress yourself out?"
Um, yeah, not cool... I had the urge to ask her how she'd feel if somebody took that approach with her the next time she was sick or hurting. It's true that teething is going to suck no matter what, but there are things you can do to make it suck a little less... and I'm pretty sure that's part of the mommy job description... there's another one for the resume...
Vanquisher of Yucky-ness
Our big go-to for teething is extra nursing and snuggle time... And Mickey... Lots of Mickey.Sam teethingBut sometimes that doesn't cut it... and for other mamas, some babies aren't nursing, or even if they typically do, will nurse less when teething. We've found a few really helpful non-nursing goodies for teething, so I figured I'd share them with you all! 
1. Our Baltic Amber teething necklace from Hazelaid Raw amber, when warmed by the skin, has pain-killing and anti-inflammatory properties that can help lessen some of the symptoms of teething (read more here). We got one for Sam when he was about 4-months-old and saw significant improvement in drooling and fussiness. We’ve even had times where we forget to put it on him after a bath and, after hours of wondering why he’s so fussy, realize what’s missing. 
2. Bandana Bibs When I originally started making these, it was not to sell them. I made a few for Sam and realized that they were way more useful for catching and absorbing all that drool than any of the traditional bibs I had. The ridges and bandana style do a great job keeping the drool away from baby’s skin, reducing those awful drool rashes babies can get on their necks and chests. 
3. Frozen teething rings are hit or miss with Sam, but good to have around. 
4. Extra bath time. I find that it is not only a good distraction from teething discomfort, but also helps the yucky cold/clammy thing Sam gets when he's teething badly. 
5. Frozen food pops & smoothies!  
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This is a big one for us... I blend up whatever we have available for a smoothy -- last time it was avocado, almond milk, raspberries, spinach, banana and coconut milk yogurt -- pour some into our Munchkin Fresh Food Freezer Pop molds and the rest into Sam's straw cup. He enjoyed the smoothie then..
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and now a month later I was able to pull a popsicle out of the freezer for him!Samuel TeethingSamuel TeethingToday he also did cold scrambled eggs (he likes them cold, it's strange) and strawberries... those seemed to feel good on his gums too. 
6. Little Remedies Infant Fever/Pain Reliever This is kind of our last resort, but especially when teething pain and discomfort disrupt sleep, we’re glad to have it as a useful tool! The Little Remedies brand isn't perfect, but it IS dye-free and gluten-free, no artificial colors or flavors, so we prefer it to the brand name Tylenol for infant acetaminophen.
I did have a fellow mama/nurse friend recommend infant ibuprofen for teething, instead of acetaminophen, since the source of the pain is often inflammation. I'll be giving that a try this time around and will let you all know how it works for us!  
Would love to hear from other mamas in the comments about what has worked for you for teething!!  
July 03, 2014

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LESSONS FROM SAM #3

Sam had some really awesome playtime the other day. He sat in this position in front of his toy basket...20140509-135116.jpg... For 45 solid minutes. Slowly choosing one toy at a time, looking at it, chewing on it, shaking it, moving it from one hand to the other, hitting it against something to see what sound it made... Then throwing it behind him emphatically, like "I'm done with you toy!" Eventually he found a toy that he wanted to hang onto, so he threw himself back and lay there playing calmly for another 10 minutes or so.20140509-135845.jpgThen he put the toy down, crawled to me, pulled himself up rubbing his eyes and asking to nurse (which means he was trying to eat my leg). He fell asleep within 5 minutes of nursing and is now out cold in my lap. It fills my heart with so much joy to see him take on his world in such a healthy, balanced way. He's a daily reminder to me to slow it down, take my time, be purposeful, be in the moment... And be at peace with the world around me.